The Very Emo--tional gurl..

3.31.18 🎵love yourself *dances* accept yourself *dances some more*🎵  Anyone reading this you are beautiful or handsome. You peeps are perfect just the way you are *smiles* if you are feeling sad you can talk to meh. I am always here..I don’t have a life. I’ve had troubles with myself in the past and sometimes now so I know how you feel if you don’t like the way you look. Your beautiful or handsome okay? Believe me there are ugly people out there and you guys aren’t any of them *coughs* like Donald Trump *giggles* you just have to see the good in yourself. Try this look in the mirror clothes off or on doesn’t matter and compliment yourself. Look at what you love...trust meh it works...I’ve done it *smiles*

3.30.18 I have a fren who loves to poke people...the ginger. everyday he pokes me, his frens, and his girlfren...it’s quite cute to be honest. The ginger is very flirty with everyone and has this weird personality. Almost everyone likes the ginger (it’s crazy) the ginger thinks he’s not cute but he really is believe it or not. (I don’t have a life so I wish I did...that why I’m writing about him) my other fren doesn’t really like him...she’s lying😂 (The ginger hates when girls giggle) Reader: well, what does expect when he’s freaking poking them! He’s making them laugh.... boi Meh: I’m sorry I’m not able to giggle about what you said *covers mouth trying not to giggle* Reader: why? Meh: The ginger Reader: *smacks head*

3.29.18 Here we go again... 1. I tend to laugh and giggle...A LOT 2. I’ve been transferred to three different schools 3. I am really cute (the ginger says so) 4. I have short dark red hair 5. I have freckles 6. I have almond shaped eyes 7. I was born in 2005 8. I don’t have brothers 9. I am mentally unclean 10. I have very overprotective parents *sighs* 11. “No ones gonna find Miss Jackson” 12. I have a fear of basements 13. I fell off my bunk bed at the age of six *covers mouth trying not to laugh* 14. I love to make my frens laugh (they laugh at everything I say) 15. I am strong,brave, and feisty 16. I love stop motion 17. I find boys with glasses attractive 18. My most favorite movie of all time is 102 Dalmatians (because of a scene my late grandma used to laugh at) 19. My middle name is referenced to a Marvel character but spelled differently 20. I am great at drawing 21. I have a weird laugh...*sighs* 22. I am really clumsy 23. My address adds up to 34 24...

3.28.18 So this month I’ve had TWO DETENTIONS one was for one hour because I slapped a boy and the other was 25 minutes just for not going to working lunch. I was in trouble with my parents and it was a huge mess. In the one hour I was sitting next to Cynthia. We didn’t talk but we wrote on our hands with red and black pens to communicate with each other. There was only likefive kids who got an hour Oscar,Davyon,Cynthia,Me, and some kid named Walter *shrugs shoulders and laughs* all I know is Walter had a temper problem. Walter was pushing desks,asking dumb questions, and saying weird stuff...then I got called to leave. Cynthia and me were talking while walking out of the school (I didn’t get home until 5:54pm...yeah I have problems. The second detention was okay. Mrs.Hauer was  monitoring us. There was this one boy “hey cutie” he said. I pointed to myself (I didn’t know if he was talking about me) he gave me this look “no, the cute person behind you” he said. I froze (I don't be...

Chapter 17: *Sniffles* I woke up and went to the bathroom and looked out the window as the rays of sun shined at my face. I put on a black shirt and jeans, then went to my room. I went into my closet. I was gripping the floor with my toes. I bent down and grabbed my black Vans, then slipped them right on my little feet. I walked down the stairs with a drowsy face. I didn’t ever expect this day to happen. I never thought that at the age of twelve I would be going to my mothers funeral...everything is great. I saw Gerald and my brothers all dressed up. Samantha was just sitting there looking pretty like always. “Hey Jayden, don’t you want to get dressed up too?” Samantha asked me. I looked into her beautiful eyes “I really want to dress up to go to a dead persons birthday party” I said sarcastically. Samantha backed away from me like I had a disease. I walked pass Samantha and went out the front door to get some fresh air. I walked to the corner store. As I was walking I saw all these k...

3.27.18 This was when I was in kindergarten at the time. I was sitting on the couch with my dog Ozzy, snuggling him but I forgot Ozzy doesn’t like cuddles. Ozzy got mad and lunged towards me growling. I didn’t see it coming. Ozzy latched on to my lips and raked them *laughs* it was really dumb of me to cuddle him...we all knew not to mess with Ozzy. Now I have two scars on my lip from him. I remember crying (reader: No really, you were crying? Well obviously he bit your lip and it’s gonna hurt!) I started bleeding...like a lot. My father got mad at my dog and my dog and him started “arguing” it was hilarious but I couldn’t laugh because more blood would gush out.

3.26.26 1. My middle name starts with E 2. I have a scar on my lip...from my dog...yeah 3. I am twelve years old...and I look nothing like it 4. My discord is Mershmallow22#1897 5.  I have six dogs and two turtles, I used to have six turtles but now they’re in turtle heaven 6. I love to draw 7. I am THICC (my fren is too) 8. I have frens 9. I love outside 10. I love penguins and elephants 11. I am a middle schooler 12. I got two detentions this month 13. I hate math 14. My cousin once kissed me 15. I have my dads ear 16. I am not really social 17. I LOVE blondes and gingers 18. I am British,Irish,Australian,Brazilian,Mexican, and more 19. I have a British accent and an American accent...it’s pretty cool 20. I have a lot of secrets 21. I kissed someone twice in 3rd grade 22. I have depression and anxiety 23. I hate when people ask me “can I...” because my reply would be “I don’t know can you” 24. I like flirty people 25. I have more friends that are boys th...

3.25.18 Me: ahhh..childhood... Reader: just get to the freaking point! Me: *rolls eyes* fine! When I was much younger than I am right now, I went to McDonalds not to eat...I just went there because of the play area that they had. Back then I used to love those but there was this part of the play area that scared me to death...the helicopter. I hated the helicopter because it was high off the ground and it would wobble a lot. If you looked down and you were on the helicopter *laughs* YOU LITERALLY JUST SAW YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE! For real though every kid would come down from that helicopter and look like they were traumatized...that's why I never went up. So one day I was in the fire truck and I was looking down and waving at my grandma from high up. My sister came up with me and "Solana! I dare you to go on the helicopter!" She said smiling. I looked at her and went with her to the helicopter. As I was going to the helicopter I started to get high anxiety (this is wher...

3.24.18 Joey is a fren of mine....he’s a ginger who loves anime...Joey looks really young like younger than me. Joey and I have known each other for sorta a long time...I guess. Joey is a flirty but cool with people *laughs* it’s kinda cute. Joey is a very weird but supportive person...in his own ways. I used to go to school with Joey in 3rd grade and we were best frens...for real he wouldn’t leave my side then he left and went to another school and we met again (we’re with each other now) and we are sorta frens...he’s not very honest though but I am with him. Joey is the kind of person who just doesn’t care. When Joey first came to Heritage Middle School, I recognized him because of his hair color *laughs* yeah I know it’s weird. Joey hasn’t changed much like I said he looks like young like a three year old (not trying to be mean) but it's true.

3.23.18 Yesterday I got mad and when I get mad I don't like to take it out on people. Usually I would draw,write,listen to music, or dance...but this time was different *grins and raises an eyebrow*  I went into my room and no one was home (besides my grandpa) and I put on MCR (My Chemical Romance) I'm Not Okay (I promise) and I was really mad so I started singing...more like yelling and *laughs and chokes on water* I went on my bed and stood on it (I do this all the time by the way) I was yelling out the lyrics with my cracking voice...puberty. ""ANOTHER LINE WITHOUT A HOOK, I HELD YOU CLOSE AS WE BOTH SHOOK, FOR THE LAST TIME, TAKE A GOOD HARD LOOK!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I jumped up and *takes sip from water bottle* my foot went another way and then SMACK...I fell on my booty "I'M NOT OKAY!" I shouted laughing and tearing up a bit on the floor (but for real I was not okay...I'm still not) I just laid there alone *laughs choking ...

3.22.18 So I have a lot of fears....one of them is *covers face* this is embarrassing...hide and seek because there was this one time where I was playing hide and seek with my cousins and I got lost, I was blocks and blocks away from there house barefoot and it was raining. Another time I was four years old and my uncle Rick and I were hiding from each other, I was walking away to hide, I look back and he wasn’t there. I started to panic and I was crying. I went looking for him but only went farther away from him. This black van rolls down the window “sweetie! You lost?” They asked me. I didn’t reply and then these freaking people were getting out of the van and trying to come towards me I JUST RAN *laughs and falls on ground laughing some more* I didn’t even look back. Then the cops were looking for me blah blah blah...you know.  My other fear is walking across streets. At the time I was three years old and my cousins and I were torturing a Barbie doll by cutting her hair,puttin...

shout out to these people.... Joey:Thank you making me laugh and blush everyday...and make me feel awkward sometimes. You are an amazing and great being. Ms.Haury:Thank you, you go through a lot of attitude from students and it's really cool how you just take it and you're so confident...keep being an amazing teacher *smiles* Ariani:Thank you for being supportive,caring,funny,weird,nice, and thank you for listening to all my thoughts and all the crazy things i'm going through right now (it means a lot) Aliana: Thank you for being a true fren and letting me be crazy and myself around you. I love how you have such a unique personality. Delilah: Thanks for telling me to chill when I need to😂 Emily:I love you're personality...it's pretty cool

3.21.18 My sister was born on December 18, 2008 at like eight or nine in the morning. My little sister is special to me, yes I get mad at her and she gets mad at me but I still love her no matter what. My little sister and I have a unique relationship with each other (I have the same relationship with my other sisters too) Issa is silly,brave,out going,confident, and just ISSA!  I love my little Issa she was my gift for my birthday (December 22) and I would do anything for her. I mainly defend my little sister like if someone bullies her I would go up to the kid and tell him or her to "stay away from my sister!" it's just how I show my love for all my sisters.                                                                                            ...

3.20.18 so on Monday in math lab this boy called me cute...NO! I honestly hate being called cute by boys (if it's one of my frens or family i'm okay with it)   So me and him were talking and then he said he kinda liked me... boi  and then "FOR REAL? I didn't know that *gives dirty look* it's very obvious!" I said to the boy. "why though?" I asked him. DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT HE SAID..."you're kinda cute" he told me. At that moment I went completely red then he writes in his notebook and shows me... it was a question that said "are you always pink?" and I just turned away and....I can't even talk (the reader is probably like you're not talking you're typing) okay well then. After class I told him "I'm not cute" and then his reply was just so freaking funny he sa-*laughs and puts hands on thighs* he said "why would I lie to cute people?' he said smiling. *smacks head and laughs* no one has...

3.19.18 So *smacks hands together and laughs* here we are again C2E2...*coughs*....(akward moment of silence) yeah so I got to meet Stan Lee like....*thinks* oh! My fifth con and it was sooooooooo AMAZING! Stan Lee was just in the crowd walking around and some people noticed him but not everyone. We ran up to Stan Lee and our jaws dropped and my dad and I were like “Stan?” And he turned around with a big smile on his face and I knew exactly who he was so it was just like so akward and inside AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....I was just screaming but on the outside I kept trembling and blushing it felt like I got a fever. That day was just so..............

3.18.18 My first comic con was when I met Carrie Fisher (R.I.P Carrie Fisher) I was young and didn't know who the heck she was. When we met her it was this little booth with black curtains. Carrie offered us some Froot Loops in a cup...we took some and she gave us light-sabers and we got to ask questions. Carrie was very smothering towards us. (by the way I gave her a hug)  Then later on in life my father told me all about my first comic con and how we got to meet Carrie Fisher (I remembered most of it) and then I asked who is Carrie Fisher and he said Princess Leia and I just couldn't (and still) believe that I met her. yah...that's it Me eating ice cream (obviously) Father casually giving me a hug Me holding the light-saber Carrie gave me

3.17.18 For you people who don't know what C2E2 is *grins* it is FREAKING AMAZING if you're a geek (like me) then i'm pretty sure you've been there or heard of it *looks around*.....okay well there is a lot of old school action figures,comics,and more but let's get to the story shall we?  Last year in April we went to comic con (C2E2) and I went with my sister and my dad. the place is huge. But that day we were gonna meet Gaten Matarazzo (Dustin from Stranger Things) and the whole time I was there I was just getting high anxiety, so we were walking around and checking things out (and I now have a dragon named Pickle) my dad knows this cosplayer named Ivy Doomkitty a.k.a Ivy Turner and she's really nice and understanding. Me and Ivy have a lot in common and we are kinda like frens (by the way she's considered famous) so we had a good talk with Ivy Doomkitty and went to look at Legos and comics *giggles* I got a Spider-Man and a Doctor Who Lego (it was the 1...

chapter 15: “Hey” I was showing Bruce around the house and Harley was flirting with my brothers. “This is my room” I said opening my door. “You like DC and Marvel too!?” He said excitingly. “I love comics and anime” I said smiling. “My sister and I were named after DC characters” he said smirking. “No! For real?” I said sarcastically. He sat on my bed and I sat right next to him. We made eye contact with each other he started blushing and I just stared into his beautiful blue eyes “you have your moms eyes” I said. He looked away and looked back at me with his beautiful ginger hair swaying with him. “So do you have a girlfriend?” I asked raising an eyebrow. “Nah, she broke up with months ago” he said. “Oh okay, so I can do this” I said. “Do what?” He questioned me. I smacked my lips onto his lips. “Cool” He said. “Yah I know” I said smiling. I walked out of the room and bumped into Samantha “oh! Sorry sweetheart” she said looking down at me with her gorgeous ey- “Hey, Jayden you wanna ...

3.16.18 I am so freaking clumsy *giggles* for over the last couples of weeks I’ve been bumping into things or cracking something. On the fourteenth I was talking to my frens and I hit my pinky on the lunch table it literally was like this “so I was standing on the stal-” SMACK “AHHHH that hurt” I said laughing. Then yesterday I was in my basement and I was barefoot (which was a bad idea) and I smashed my toes into the laundry room door and I heard my toes crack and I just fell to the ground crying and laughing “Solana! What happened?” My dad asked running down the hallway smiling. The last one (because there are too many) I will talk about is almost smacking into a tree and then tripping face first into dirt. So my sisters and I were throwing the ball back and forth and the ball rolled  into the street and I ran to get it. When I came back I moved to the right to avoid smacking into the tree but the I tripped on the trees roots and fell face first into the mud and I kept laughing ...

chapter 13: "my mind is going to explode" I was at Gerald's house and I was with my brothers and I started making plans (I will come back to that) I started thinking about what am I going to do about the rest of my life. my whole life is just tipping over onto me I am really stressed out. “Jayden?” Donnie said sobbing. “Donnie!?” I asked running up to him and hugging him. I saw he had is phone in his hand. I grabbed his phone and looked at the number...it was the hospital. I called the number back “HEYY PICK UP!” I shouted into the phone... “Hello?” The nurse said. “Um..I was calling to find out what did you say to my brother?” I asked trying not to lose it. “What your name honey?” The nurse asked. “Jayden Bree Frentil” I said into the phone. “Do you know a...Sophia Frentil?” She asked. My heart stopped and I couldn’t breathe “...um...yes, yes I do” I said trembling. “Oh...I’m sorry sweetheart” the nurse said empathetic “oh BLEEP” I said crying (by the way the bleep is a...

3.15.18 Did you know that I draw? I think I’m good at drawing so do my frens. I am very good at shading and mixing cartoonish and realism together. I love to draw anatomy it very interesting (I would say)  anatomy is fun because I don’t find it creepy or gross it’s basically parts of our body. Did you know I don’t only just draw, no no honey I dance too! I find it boring but fun Mrs.Shavanah is my dance instructor...she’s okay not the best person ever but she’s okay (I hate the songs she choses) but yah. Those are talents that I have.

3.14.18 I LOVE TØP (Twenty One Pilots) it just always puts me in a happy,drowsy, or sad mood. I feel like when I listen to TØP they understand me. All their songs I can relate to like the cover Cancer (my grandma died from cancer) the song is sorta how she talked about her cancer it was sad but if I think about my grandma I listen to Cancer and I will start crying. I would usually draw while listening to keep myself from crying. Another song I love is called Kitchen Sink because I have those days where I feel worthless and don’t know what to do with myself so the song is a good mood booster. The last song I really love is Poralize it’s just very up mood like you can just dance to it. (I love all TØP songs but these are my top three)And I know a bunch of TØP haters are probably talking bad about it (I DON’T CARE)   TØP has helped me a lot over the years with things I’ve gone through (it’s a lot) and I hate when people talk bad about TØP it’s a band CHILLLLLLLLL

3.13.18 On Saturday I was very hyper. I was rolling in the grass and I was singing lyrics out loud “BuT i  MaKe ThEsE hIGh HeEls WoRk!” Or “We HaVe To TuRn Up ThE cRaZZy!” With my voice cracking like crazy. I kept waving to any of the cars passing by me and my sisters ran away from me and I chased them. Me and my sisters *laughs and almost falls* had a mud fight (kinda like a snowball fight) and then we got in trouble and my mom came out of the house and took pictures (I didn’t want her to) it was kinda embarrassing just imagine a picture of kids just covered in mud...it’s not a pretty picture is it? It was a great day *smiles and looks into sky with hands on hips*

3.12.18 It was the beginning of the year and we got assigned seats in ELA and I sat near a girl named Ariani. Me and Ariani would talk here and there but we wouldn’t start a conversation with each other. After a few months we switched seats and I wasn’t near her anymore and I went into a sadn- nah I’m just kidding. We switched but I still would talk to her a bit not as much anymore. Then Joey came and Joey became frens with Ariani and I knew Joey already so...it was easier to talk to Ariani again. Ariani and me are very alike (we are basically sisters) we can talk about whatever and we are very supportive of each other. We can talk about things we hate about being thick or talk about GOKU or just start a stupid but funny conversation. Shout to Joey for making our frenship happen...in a way *smiles*

3.11.18 Lets take a moment and appreciate that Panic!At The Disco is actually a band *closes eyes* okay now I have been listening to P!ATD for a while now I have to say ITS FREAKING AWESOME! [like I don't know how to describe it] all the songs from P!ATD [in my opinion] are great. I know most of the lyrics to Death Of A Bachelor and Girls/Girls/Boys...*looks around* that's not weird right? I recommend it *smiles* well I don't know what else to say *looks down and thinks* oh how about Brendon Urie...he's okay [a whole bunch of people probably just got mad at me for saying that] well thank you for reading my SOL my love for you guys is bigger than Brendon Uries forehead *laughs and runs*

3.10.18 So in first grade at my older school (Goodwin) and I was in the bathroom and all I hear was “at this time we want teachers to lock there doors and take cover” the speaker said (it was a drill)  It was the beginning of the year and they hadn’t said much about it so I get up on the toilet but I was standing on it like a dum dum (by the way I just watched the Spider-Man movie so...) I got up on the stall *laughs* and touched the ceiling “why isn’t it sticking, like Spider-Man?” I asked. Just as I said that I feel off the stall and hit my chin on the other stall and *laughs again* fell and then CRACK broke my arm *laughs and falls off chair* and I just kept thinking “am I gonna die like this?” *laughs on floor* And after like 2 hours I was found on the bathroom floor.

3.9.18 Today I woke up and I felt GREAT (it was odd) I went downstairs to get some clean socks and the laundry room smelled like wet clothes? I don’t know I’m just trying to add detail okay. I ran back upstairs because the basement freaking scares me and there’s a painting that my sister made of Selena Quintanilla (it’s beautiful) but it looks like the painting is just staring at you so I run *laughs* and when I ran something fell and I swore out loud and then I started to laugh “Are you okay?” My dad asked me. I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS DOWNSTAIRS. I thought I was in trouble because of the word I said. I went upstairs trying so hard not to laugh (as you can tell I love to laugh) I finally got up stairs. I went to take a shower I played some music *ahem* by music I mean PANIC!AT THE DISCO. In the shower I started singing and my voice cracked so many times I was like 🎵  ThE dEaTh oF a BaChElOr🎵 And my mom comes in and opens the shower curtain “puberty is gonna hit you like a train” my m...

3.8.18 So yesterday I had an anxiety attack. It was 3:20pm and I asked a boy something and he gave me an answer I wasn’t expecting. I walked away trying to breathe and smiling  “are you okay solana?” Delilah said I looked at her trying to speak “what did he do” Delilah asked. I didn’t talk for a minute and I was just really excited. I see him walking over to me and I ran out of the school with tears of joy and *laughs and falls off chair* I was just thinking “what did I just do?” And I went on with my day 😋

Ah crushes, that weird feeling for someone else yeah that’s considered a crush. So today (I’m not gonna say who) I was feeling extra weird around him. I try to talk to him but then I don’t know how to talk to him. This boy is my crush and my friend so...yeah. I think of crushes as someone you like and then when you tell them you like them they usually don’t like you back so it “crushes” you. Back to this person I really like him but I don’t know this kids reaction if I do tell him (by the way I don’t want to date) I just want to tell him how I feel. It’s called growing up so you have to deal with these kinds of things. I always talk to this person he’s a good friend to me but I don’t know what to do. Crushes are a big thing in middle school I never noticed that there’s a lot of dating and gossip about everyone’s crushes I find it kinda...creepy. I am not into gossip it’s just a little mean because it’s basically someone else’s secrets or just rumors.

Chapter 11: “I don’t know anymore” We were pulling into the driveway and parked. We got out of the car “home sweet home boys” I said smiling and putting my hands on my hips. Donnie and Dylan got there bags from Gerald’s car and bought them into the house “Noice” I said. We all went into the house and made the best of it “I can live with this” Dylan said excitingly “it’s like a mansion” Donnie said and looked around. I looked at Gerald “can I talk to you?” I asked him “sure” he replied. We went on the front porch and sat on the stairs “can you take me to my dads?” I asked. Gerald gave me a confused stare “just take me” I said. We got up and I went to the car with a huge bag filled with “stuff” and Gerald went to get the keys “we will be back” he yelled “okay” Donnie and Dylan said. Gerald unlocked the car and put the key in the ignition and we drove to fath-some persons house. Gerald looked at the bag and his eyes were bulging out “are you gonna kill him!?” He asked freaking out “NO!” ...

3.6.18 Ha childhood! You know where you got your way and all those weird shows you used to watch. The shows I used to watch was usually (this is kinda embarrassing) Teletubies,Yo Gabba Gabba,  Rubbadubbers,Kipper,Dragon Ball Z,Caillou,Dragon Tales,Wonder Pets,Wow Wow Wubbzy,Oobi,Batman Beyond, and my all time favorite Peppa Pig. My childhood was so great I remember the smell of cinnamon and the warmth of my small apartment. When I was one I would “read”comics in this one corner of my apartment and the floor was always cold. Sometimes when I was mad I would lay in the middle of my living room and count my fingers over and over again until I was sleepy. Just imagine being a parent (who would want to be a parent?) and seeing your kid get mad then walk to a room and watch your kid lay down with a serious face and just starts counting their fingers over and over wouldn’t you be kinda scared of your child? *laughs* I’m sorry but I would’ve left my kid alone and left *laughs hard* My par...

3.5.18 Last night I was talking to my friend  on discord. It was in the of the night and we were just  messaging each other back and forth. We were talking about how we miss some of our old  exploratory‘s and how our new ones are boring. Then we were talking about things we hate and things we like. We were talking until then we said good night...then I just “I can’t sleep” so we just kept talking. We started to talk about how society is today and then we were talking about her boyfriend and was talking about how cute he is and all that. I started getting sleepy AGAIN I remember closing my eyes and opening them back up. I said good night and she said good night too so I went asleep for a bit and then woke back up and started talking to her again about stupid stuff (and me trying not to laugh at some of the stuff she said because I share a room with my sisters and they were sleeping like little baby’s) and then finally we said good night officially at like 2:37am...an...

3.4.18 This morning I was thinking about how school is gonna end in about four months and you know summer is coming up so I was thinking about body image. I was just thinking about how parents like to say when your younger “it’s just baby fat” and then when your older and you still have that “baby fat” and then Your just thinking to yourself “why is it here still?” And then I was thinking about how everyday I keep complaining about myself and my dad would say the same thing “then workout”and I would give him a look and then the whole your “beautiful” and “love yourself” talk comes up (this is the reason why I don’t talk about my thoughts out loud) and if I do think out loud they get interrupted by my father, I love my father don’t get me wrong but *whew* those speeches though. I don’t even know how my father comes up with these speeches because it’ll go on for like an hour, like does he practice or write them down because its this huge speech. And my father just wastes his time and I’...

3.3.18 On July 7, 2017 My dad,sisters,and I went to watch Spider-Man homecoming in theaters. At 6:30pm we would start going to see the movie. Like two hours before we were just freaking out(what I mean by “we”is just ME) I used to have a huge crush *I still do now but not as much* on Spider-Man...well I mean the actor. Tom Holland was my addiction at the time I used to look him up on my iPad in fifth grade, I had pictures of him saved probably like over fifty,and I would stalk him on Instagram. We were all ready to go so we got into our van and my dad was teasing me about liking Tom Holland like “I’m gonna watch you” and then I would get red or he would say “so how do you feel” and I would just laugh. I didn’t just go to see the movie just to see Tom Holland I’m a big fan of Marvel comics and I was just dying to know what happens after civil war because it was such a cliff hanger like ughhhh. But when we got to the theater it was small and fancy it was very cold in there and smelled ...

3.2.18 This morning was like an anxiety or happiness. I woke up smiling because last night I was talking to my friend on discord and we were chatting away about certain things we hate...back to this morning I felt great because a lot of things I was honest and I punched someone and broke his nose. I woke up at 7:15 (I was a little late to school but I made the best of it) then in first block I was listening to some music *ahem,P!ATD* and it was really loud and the teacher was like “if you can’t hear me then it’s too loud” but in my head I was like *but who would want to hear you though?* and I was jamming and humming to my music and the teacher came back like “Solana, be careful” and I was like bruh! And I’m very hyper right now. I feel very happy maybe to happy but I’m gonna do something today and I’m gonna feel proud about yahhhh! *heh what am I doing*

chapter 9: “oh dear” We were getting out the house and into the car crying STILL (yes I know, okay there’s a lot of emotions, deal with it!) Gerald gave me a look “don’t cry c’mon” he said. “Yeah we burned dads chair!” Donnie said smiling, I looked at him “yeah you’re right, but was it the right thing to do?” I said with a regretful face “well it was not a good thing to do but...you could’ve just burnt a pencil or a  important papers...I don’t know?”Gerald said smirking “True” I said replying to him. Donnie and Dylan were sleeping in the backseats while I was listening to music and worrying about life and how I’m not normal and I will never be “so...what’s up?” Gerald asked being concerned. “I don’t know?” I answered back “I know how you feel” Gerald said right back, I looked at him “what do you mean?” He looked at me “you know at your age, you want a boyfriend ” Gerald said smiling “EW! NO!” I said laughing. “You want a good friend...that you kiss sometimes” Gerald said cracking ...

3.1.18  I was in 3rd, during science class. We were learning about different types of clouds and I was minding my own business and writing in my science notebook and talking to my friend (we’re gonna call him Tyler so we don’t expose him) so back to the story Tyler and me were talking about how we hate science class. Then suddenly “can we kiss?” Tyler asks me “no” I answer with a straight face, It was funny because it went from funny to serious. I felt kinda bad because he wouldn’t talk to me and he looked embarrassed. We were in social studies now and we had independent time to work on our vocabulary “I’m sorry” Tyler said softly “it’s okay, I’m sorry too” I replied “why?” He asked. I was trying to Think of how to put it but I couldn’t Tyler interrupted my thoughts “um...do you wanna make out?” He asked raising an eyebrow, everything went to talking and then just dead silent. I gave him a dirty look and went back to work “I’ll give you five bucks?” He asked putting his head down ...